Dear New Twin Mom,
I see you staring incredulously at the two tiny people that you created… and I know. I know the gut-wrenching, earth-shattering, overwhelming amount of joy and gratitude you are feeling right now.
I see you in the checkout line at Target, gently rocking your double stroller back and forth and glancing at the time… and I know. I know the amount of time you took to get your babies out of the house. I know you timed it precariously so you can be home in time to feed them. You feel as if you just climbed a mountain and ran a marathon because you managed to get both babies out of the house by yourself.
I see you in the middle of the night, feeding those babies so they grow big and strong… and I know. I know what it’s like to feed two babies every three hours, round the clock. It takes so long that by the time you’re done, there are only 45 minutes until you have to start it all over again.
I see you with the bags under your eyes, cold coffee, untouched breakfast… and I know. I know what it’s like to feel delirious and physically ill from lack of sleep.
I see your smile as your babies notice each other the first time… and I know. I know what it’s like to love two little people and to watch and wait for the day they notice and start to love each other.
I see you flipping through your twin books… and I know. I know what it’s like to have no clue what you’re supposed to do with twins. Should they share a crib? Can they share bottles?
I see your unwashed hair, 3-day-old leggings, and spit-up covered shirt… and I know. I know you feel like a shell of yourself and would love for even an hour to yourself.
I see you crying with your babies… and I know. I know the feeling of despair because you can’t comfort both of your babies at the same time. I know what it’s like to have to decide which baby is crying harder and gets to be held while the other goes in the swing.
I see your overflowing laundry baskets… I know. It’s truly mind-boggling how much laundry two tiny little humans can create. We’re going on two years and I have yet to have a day where I am completely ‘caught up’ on laundry.
I see you looking around at the chaos that is your life… I know. I know how guilty you feel that you can’t keep up with everything.
I know the joy.
I know the exhaustion.
I know the struggle.
I didn’t write this post today to tell you how to get through this. (Although I’ve done that here.) I just wanted to tell you today that you are enough. You are doing everything perfectly right,
even when especially when it doesn’t feel like it. You may feel like you are alone, but you are not. Many twin moms have come before you, and they have survived… myself included. I am here for you!
I see you… and I know.